"Hey, I'll have you know, my blush used to be life changing." Used to be, he says, as always, because that's not the man he is anymore. Back then, he might've been the one saying all of this with such confidence, but now?
Now, he listens to her lay it all out, and his brain tries to supply at least twenty reasons why this wouldn't work, right off the bat. He's sure it'll be a hundred more by the time dinner is over, but- it's also just so genuine and sweet. It's nice, and he'd be lying if he said he didn't feel the same in so many ways. The difference is, he's tried not to think about it.
That last part hits him the hardest though- not the thing about being his girl- though he absolutely adores that too, because it sounds so familiar- but the part about how she thinks life doesn't suck because there's him in it. The Winter Soldier. Bucky Barnes.
"I- uh." Breathe, Bucky. Breathe. "I don't know what to say. I'm... I just never thought..." Shit. He wanted to do this in person, but he's fumbling all over himself. He blows out a breath, dragging his hand across his face, but then he lets it fall against the table, reaching out for her hand. He needs to pull it together.
"You see how I am now? This is how I always am. This is how I feel always. Even though- I like you too. I like you a lot and you being my girl would be a dream, but- I'm an idiot who can barely handle this conversation." Another breath. "I'm scared. I'm scared of messing us up."
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Date: 2024-08-12 04:13 am (UTC)Now, he listens to her lay it all out, and his brain tries to supply at least twenty reasons why this wouldn't work, right off the bat. He's sure it'll be a hundred more by the time dinner is over, but- it's also just so genuine and sweet. It's nice, and he'd be lying if he said he didn't feel the same in so many ways. The difference is, he's tried not to think about it.
That last part hits him the hardest though- not the thing about being his girl- though he absolutely adores that too, because it sounds so familiar- but the part about how she thinks life doesn't suck because there's him in it. The Winter Soldier. Bucky Barnes.
"I- uh." Breathe, Bucky. Breathe. "I don't know what to say. I'm... I just never thought..." Shit. He wanted to do this in person, but he's fumbling all over himself. He blows out a breath, dragging his hand across his face, but then he lets it fall against the table, reaching out for her hand. He needs to pull it together.
"You see how I am now? This is how I always am. This is how I feel always. Even though- I like you too. I like you a lot and you being my girl would be a dream, but- I'm an idiot who can barely handle this conversation." Another breath. "I'm scared. I'm scared of messing us up."